"I’ve lied and told the whole world 'I’m okay and I’m happy' ... I'm not happy."

In 2007 and 2008, Britney Spears had a string of very public breakdowns. While the reasons were myriad and sympathetic—a divorce and custody battle in the public eye, the immense pressure under which we put female entertainers, fraught family relationships, substance abuse, relentless paparazzi—her "spectacular fall" became the butt of every late night joke, public opinion plummeted, and in 2008, she was placed in a conservatorship under her father, Jamie Spears. 

That conservatorship, as explained by Zoe Haylock for Vulture, was initially instated over "serious concern for Spears’s well-being, but, just a few months later, she was fully back to work — filming a documentary and releasing Circus in November 2008. While every arrangement is different, for Britney the conservatorship means having to ask her father 'to sign off on every major decision she makes, from business, to health, to voting and marriage.'"

Over the years, the New York Times has alleged that Spears has quietly sought an end both to her father's role in her conservatorship.

"Ms. Spears, 39, expressed serious opposition to the conservatorship earlier and more often than had previously been known, and said that it restricted everything from whom she dated to the color of her kitchen cabinets." 

The investigator went on to write, “She is ‘sick of being taken advantage of’ and she said she is the one working and earning her money but everyone around her is on her payroll."

Yesterday, she finally spoke to Los Angeles judge Brenda Penny about the conservatorship—and stated, in no uncertain terms, "It’s my wish and my dream for all of this to end without being tested. All I want is to own my money, for this to end, and my boyfriend to drive me in his f*cking car." 

She told Penny:

"I haven’t been back to court in a long time, because I don’t think I was heard on any level when I came to court the last time...I’m great at what I do. And I allow these people to control what I do, ma’am. And it’s enough. It makes no sense at all. I would like to progressively move forward and I want to have the real deal, I want to be able to get married and have a baby. I was told right now in the conservatorship, I’m not able to get married or have a baby, I have a (IUD) inside of myself right now so I don’t get pregnant. I wanted to take the (IUD) out so I could start trying to have another baby. But this so-called team won’t let me go to the doctor to take it out because they don’t want me to have children – any more children. So basically, this conservatorship is doing me way more harm than good. I deserve to have a life."

It remains to be seen whether or not Spears will be freed from her conservatorship, although Penny told her at the end of the recorded phone call, "I certainly am sensitive to everything that you said and how you’re feeling and I know that it took a lot of courage for you to say everything you have to say today ... the court does appreciate your coming on the line and sharing how you’re feeling."

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